Peer Pressure is Real
Came home. This ensued:
Me: What’s up?
J: You gonna drink with us?
Me: I dunno…
J: We have tequila!
THE BEST TRAIN CONVERSATION I HAVE EVER OVERHEARD
- Man 1: But I'm not Gay!
- Man 2: Yeah, but if you WERE. Thor or Loki?
- Man 1: but I'm not!
- Man 2: IRRELEVANT! THOR OR LOKI!
- Man 1: honestly?
- Man 2: THOR OR LOKI!
- Man 1: probably Iron Man.
- Man 2: SERIOUSLY? TONY STARK?
- Man 1: yeah. I'd love to be Robet Downey Jr's bitch. God, that man....
- Man 2: ooh I know what you mean. how would he proceed?
- Man 1: well we'd be having dinner and he'd have his hand on my leg and he'd whisper in my ear and tell me exactly what he was going to do to me.
- Man 2: oh yeah..
- Man 1: and then his hand'd go further to the top of my leg and start grasping my-
- Random Woman: EXCUSE ME THERE ARE CHILDREN ON THIS TRAIN.
- *awkward silence*
- Man 2: ...and you said you werent gay!
Love Imaginary
Part of me only expects love to be a figment of the imagination. The love I’m looking for. the one that’s powerful and life changing and exists between two people romantically.
I imagine that love is powerful, it is what is embodied in love songs. That’s the love I think people deserve (besides a love that exists in all others around them). It’s what I think I deserve.
It’s just possibly not real. Yet, I can’t stop hoping.
Never stop hoping.
Nope
I’m having one of those days where I genuinely do not understand the world around me
Adventures
How I usually think about this:
I’m happiest when I’m by myself, which is no exaggeration. My happiest moments have been in the past year or so, and most of them involved me being alone, doing things for myself. I’m slowly but surely weaning myself from the idea that I need someone around, whether or not I desperately or not so desperately want it.
So, I want someone who will go on adventures with me. I want someone to be my partner in crime, the Robin in my Dynamic Duo (not in the sense of my protoge, but a dedicated and able partner).
Actually, the best comparison I can give is that I want a partner who will be the Batman to my Superman, who will be my best friend, my confidante, my failsafe, the one to count on me and believe in me when no one else will, but also the one to do what needs to be done if the occasion ever arises.
I’m tired of pretending that I need someone around, or that having someone around will change things. I want someone to love who will go adventuring with me, whatever that means, but can stand on his own, like I try to.
That being said… Now I have to dismantle the fear of finding the wrong adventuring partner :)
